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I am Me 
She is LiewHuiHuiConnie. 29june1991. NYP Business Management. TalkHere GoAway! Brother Jan. Lpf. Mich Mom. PeiXin. SweeYee. XuanJin. ZhouDao. Charlene L. Charlene W. Ham. Hwee Siang. Jassy. Jasmine W. Jiaying. Kelly. Olivia. YuPing. Alyssa. Ariel. Beverly. Gloria. JiaYin. Meisei. WeiJie. YiMin. Yuling. Alden. Bingyuan. Eehwan. Gerald. Henry. Huimin. Janice. Jiayi. Karen. Monique. Sokkiang. Seokteng. Sinyee. Skyco. Valerie. Winwin. Yanling. Amanda. Wanchin. XuanRui. Yewleong. as from 17may2008(: |
Monday, April 30, 2007 ulcer...
AWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! PAINNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i rubbed salt on my ulcer in my mouth.. so salty!! found tt the xi gua shuang put le no use so i went to put salt. wahahaha! found the pain when rubbed salt on was so SHUANG!=X now i move my mouth i can sense the pain. but i enjoy it. X) u all might tink i bian tai de liao. im not afraid of pain. =) the most painful one is leg cramp. FUCK! y am i the only one in my family who always got leg cramp??!! this is the only pain that always make my tears falls. okay. todae got ss and emaths paper 1. well. i gonna fail ss i tink. hahas. nvm got hist. hist also cant, nvm i got p.geog. LOL! den emaths im puttin all my hopes on paper 2. went xuanjin hse majong session. lols. tml is labour day! MUGGING TIME. no place to study. HUIMIN SAID AIRPORT! i will go study dere one night. :)) gonna go study soon. =)) TAKE CARE PEOPLE!! mother's day coming! X) 4/30/2007 11:52:00 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 cheer up my korkor. =)
KORKOR! can u please SMILE [ lyk this --> =)) ]i noe u are still quite sad. still told mi tt u are only tired. wanted to bring u to the swing to cheer u up. but u dont wan. =( perhaps this wont works on u. im just being irritating la.. i noe. take care of urself. drink lots of water. weather is not good. smile! =D u look veri handsome when u smile! =) im neva say tt u arent handsome okay! u are just the most handsome guy alright? meimei shi ai ni de! ( it seems so long tt i last said it. ) dun hate mi korkor. =( 4/25/2007 10:40:00 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007 HEADACHE
having a terrible headache for the whole day. and now. too.seems lyk my head and brain and wadeva cells or wad will spilt anytime. it hurts so much.. endin my life shld be the best solution. end all the troubles i had created. end all the things i had said tt irritated my frens. end all the hatred tt ppl have for mi. end all the discomfort. end all the unhappiness inside mi. end all the stress i have for studies. end all the love and care of those who LOVED mi. end all the taking back to my parents. end all the quarrelling wif frens and sisters and parents. im just so extra in this world perhaps. i shldnt belong here. i brought unhappiness to ppl around mi. i noe tt u all dun lyk mi. hate my attitude. hate my voice hate my face hate everything la. im just so sry tt i made u all felt so unhappy by the words tt i've said. commiting suicide is a crime. but.. is it a crime to end my sufferings?? forgive and forgets mi. un-loved. 4/24/2007 11:32:00 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007 NAPFA
I PASSED MY 2.4!!!! WEE~!!! SO HAPPY SO HAPPY!!!specially thanks to MEISIEW. HUIJUN. JIAHUI & DOREEN!!!! WEE~!!! 4/23/2007 09:45:00 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007 lonely. miserable. saddistic.
haiis.just felt or perhaps realli lonely even if is after sch or in class. nobody to tok to now. mrs cheng had change my place. im now sittin beside zhenli. in the middle of the class. felt so uncomfortable. on wed,somebody told mi tt i was being pai chi. my whole day was ruined. or even the whole week. i cried. oh my~ im just so emotional. friends are more important den my life or den water or food or wadever. without friends. wads the use of living? mich mum wasnt in sch todae and ytd. due to her red swollen eyes. which made mi become mother-less. tml still have to go back for hist ssp. same thing. mich mum is not goin. haiis. have to go back alone again. =( fine fine fine. i just have to learn to be independent. everybody know how dependent i was. =P ( im overdependent. ) thats y im gonna marry early. X) hahas. napfa 2.4 is in 2 days time. i will go joggin tml. X) im tryin midnite muggin at mac tml! is anybody interested to accompany mi?( currently im alone la ) 4/21/2007 12:32:00 AM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 i wanted to be alone for the time being.. 4/17/2007 12:13:00 AM
Sunday, April 15, 2007 mugging
hmms. todae lpf jio-ed mi go muggin. went hougang mall de ljs. lols.somehow felt tt i will fail my emaths. aww.. =( after 4 hrs of studyin. we decided to rest. :) lpf wanna play pool. but im nt 16 yet. sry. so we went cp. lols. played arcade. she had help mi won a winnie the pooh towel thingy. im so happy! =)) thanks alot! wo hao ai ni nerx! after that she went to meet her parents and i gotta go back myself. took 161. its single deck. found a place at the corner back. lata got a ah neh guy sat beside mi. my sideview can c tt he is lookin at mi. perhaps im too sensitive or wad. i wore tank top todae. so err humm. i was realli scared then. the bus doesnt have any empty space i guess. from where i could c.. somemore i couldnt get out. i felt so insecured.. im so scared. i quickly took my bag and cover myself. aww... but at last he dropped off before my stop. LUCKILY. or else i dunnoe how to get out.. but i still felt so.. haiis.. todae my mummy and my korkor wasnt here to protect mi. =(( im realli scared. sobsob... i shall try not to go back late now. =( i nid and i wan my kokor and mummy!!! IM STILL A SMALL INNOCENT GIRL! X) sry korkor. im part of the reason why ur msg will bao. X) I MISSED MY FRIENDS! i just can say tt. i cant live without you all around. =) 4/15/2007 10:16:00 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007 FIRST : was fucked up by someone in class.. NEXT : i cried. ='( NOW : im sad =( and angry. 4/13/2007 08:33:00 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007 =) well. not much things happen this week. band got sliver for their syf. good job la. =) sec 4Es and 5Ns moved to third floor aircon classroom. sat wif teesoon at the back of the class. it was damn freaking cold dere. left my jacket in sch. hahas. oh ya. mich mum was sick. din go sch.. ask u to go c doc le dun wan. now den u wanna listen to mi. herx. korkor got ulcers ALL OVER HIS MOUTH. =X ewWw~. X) must drink alot water den ur ulcers will be gone de lor. OKAY OKAY.. I NOE IM NAGGY. FINE FINE. I JUST WANNA CARE FOR U ALL HAO MA. this few days have been waitin for u all till so late in sch. yet u all still dun wan to appreciate my nagging.. sob sob.. X) LOL! hao la. is i wan wait de la. not u all force mi to wait de la. can? okay? everything dou shi mi la mi la. YEAH!! IM THE STRONGEST! WEE~!! btw. had napfa test 5 items test on monday. failed incline. sob~ i just dun have that kind of muscle la. fang guo wo la.. i dun wan retest.. ='( i had 50cm for sit and reach!! wee! sit up onli done till 31. cuz its already 5 mrks. lols! passed the rest. aHH!! i dun wan 2.4 runnin.. wad the hell.. idiot.. i hate my small legs. ='( KORKOR! : dun be bu hao yi si la. im ur meimei lei! wait for u is tian jing di yi de shi qing de lor! MICH MUM! : drink more water and rest more ar! kip sleepin la. lol! rest ur pea-brain. X) i realli made something for u on mother day de!
4/12/2007 08:55:00 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007 went joanne's bdae party todae. HAPPY BIRTHDAE JOANNE! =) den lata mi mich and jan cant find any place to go. so.. went cp. =.= de LIBRARY. SIAN. from 5+ 6+ littat till 9. wad the hell.. i have the patience to wait for them sia. without readin any books. lol. doesnt feel lyk eatin this few days. sian. THIS MONDAY IS 5 ITEMS. I HATE NAPFA TEST!!! ARGG!!!! i dun wan kao napfa la......... let mi off!!!!! sob.. sob.. sob.. 4/07/2007 11:38:00 PM
 "my handsome kor" " mich mum's cute daughter! " " my korkor's cute meimei!! "i cut my own hair todae. lols. hmm.. dun tink its obvious bah. tink somedae ppl will notice. LOL. actually wanted to go aunt hse. but my uncle said he not goin so i cant go. went kovan walk awhile be4 meetin korkor todae. hahas! i bought something. =X den went hougang mall de kfc wait for him.. he came not long after i reached. ard 5 i tink. hahas. onli drank ice milo. korkor taught mi maths. =) the whole emaths chapt 4 and 5. and some amaths. hahas! finally i noe something. hmm.. i wasnt hungry todae so i din eat anything. X) ard 8.30 we went walkin ard.. den saw lpf! lol. tt guy.. ohh.. err.. okay la.. hahas! we walked to punggol park. hahas. played swing. so long since i last played. =) haiis.. den walked home lor. dropped my ear stud. jan insisted to find it back. he crossed the road when it was red light. i was so worried. its onli a ear stud man! i found it on the road. cuz i noe it dropped while i exchanged bag wif jan. wanted to pei korkor wait for bus. but he dun wan. sob.. he walked mi to my hse downstairs. X) he certainly knows the way to the bus stop! lols. I WILL STOP SAY 'FUCK' THIS WORD. WENHAO SAE IM KIP SAYIN TT WORD. ARgG. AND WHEN I ASKED HIM TO FUCK OFF. HE WILL SAY IM VERI FIERCE. SO I WILL STOP IT. AND I WILL BE A GOOD GIRL. =) MA + KOR : fine. u all say i naggy when u all is sick and i asked u all to drink water. herx. i shall not do it anymore. I STOP LOVIN U 2!!! HERX!!!!! arGgh!! IM ANGRY LE! 4/07/2007 12:42:00 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007  THIS WAS THE HAT ON KOR'S HEAD. ACT CUTE? ( sry ur head is to big to be cute. =X ) CUTE LA CUTE LA. ( because u had a cute meimei! ) smile lyk this always! thats my handsome korkor! WEE~!! mummy just dun wanna buy it for u. LOL! bleh bleh bleh! FORGOTTEN TO POST THIS FOTO! LOLS. THAT TIME( sunday ) MI MUM AND KORKOR WENT KIDDY PALACE! AND WE PLAYED WITH CLOTHES ALL THOSE. LOLS. I COULD WEAR THE SHOES OF THE BIGGEST SIZE. AND IT WAS STILL QUITE BIG FOR MY LEGS! LOLS. P.S :: korkor! dun hate mi for sayin that ur head too big! X) WO SHI AI NI DE! HAHAHAHA! but im stating a fact. =XX i love u so u cant hate mi! WEE~!! 4/06/2007 12:45:00 AM
    we saw cat ' doin their things' todae. =X i took it down. mich mum too. X) hahas.. MOVED TO 3RD FLOOR TODAE! the classroom seems so small. i sat beside teesoon. dun wished to sit beside winson cuz its veri diff to get out from dere. lols. todae english ssp made everyone sort of speakin proper english. LOL. i was trying to sae " the " in very proper english. was diff for mi. i nid to attend the wad phonic class le la!! lols. i nid more practice. arGg. after ssp leen came my hse. lend her clothes.. top to bottom la. ma fan. onli goin out have to come my hse.. hahas. nvm. i dun mind. lols. mi and mum turned leen to street style! hahas. we combined our diff style and it turn out nice on leen! LOL. leen would have to thank mi so much! LOLS! beta becareful while goin out wif him ar. and beta wear hao hao ur clothes all those. dun wear till wai wai de all those la. dun waste my effort that i put in so much for u. hahas. take care of my necklace ar! FRAGILE! its EX too! and eh. MUST RETURN MI EVERYTHING HOR!!! lols!
4/06/2007 12:28:00 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007 syf. sliver. sad.
 we were forced to take. lols. ms said she tied mi and doris hair. rabbit teeth. chinyee! the gurl who had the biggest eyes. =X MEISIEW! kana tou pai by CHAN MEISIEW. wenhao shave his head becuz everybody say he look lyk lim peck chin! a normal foto. hahas. yilin kana pushed by edna! lols! act cute! fattah got his hair tied up the fierce erhu seniors! shaun! look here! my fucking ugly face. lols. MY 'CUTE' MUMMY! BECUZ OF U. I AM SO CUTE NOW! LOLS! my shuai gege! HE IS THE BEST KORKOR! WO SHI AI NI DE! LOL! PEIXIN! wanqing! shumei. WHOLE CO. but valerie and keewei wasnt here. yi jia hu! shaun fell becuz of wenkai. SE SE FAMILY ROCKS! leen! =) she is my best fren! shihan!! my dear junior xinhui. she is the best junior! =)!! where the hell is mi and doris lookin. (look at baoyi. =X) laolin! almost the whole erhu ppl + xinhao wanqing and sinyee erhu sec 4 seniors the erhu sec 4 seniors!  LIN LAO SHI! he still remember i told him tt my name is liang ge zi de de! ba san er ren zu! we were tryin our uniform. co chair and vice chair! woOhOO! extra.SYF. SLIVER. SAD. haiis.. dunno how to describe my feelings.. ytd was the syf for SKYCO. and was the LAST time for sec 4s. the LAST time to hold our instruments. the LAST time we can c our instructors and conductor. the FIRST and LAST time we could wear the co uniform. I MISS CO NOW. those times that we had our practices.. so fun.. although sometimes is quite sian. but still so fun.. those times.. yi jia hu.. haiis.. missed the times durin cultural nite and rehearsals.. on the bus.. were erhu ppl.. playin.. laughing.. shoutin.. haiis.. not anymore.. juniors.. seniors.. we were so close.. perhaps. ppl kip pon co last time.. now.. not anymore.. for sec 4s.. haiis.. just so depress.. no more playin wif juniors.. kidding wif lao huang.. practicing.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! duno hows life will be when no more co... syf.. early in the mornin.. everybody reached sch at 6am.. started to practice once more.. den we set off to SCH.. reached dere.. already 2 kiasu schs dere. take up our space.. we cant even find a place for us to tiao ying.. the ppl dere asked us to go inside the room.. thot tt they so kind.. allow us go inside tiao ying. but. asked us to go in and we cant TUNE. wad the fuck. huang laoshi was lyk 'cannot tiao ying den can do wad?' haiis.. den we were onli allowed 15 mins inside after everybody dao le. haiis. after 15 mins we had to go out. and WAIT QUIETLY outside the hall. cant even tune. when we haven tune our instuments. but these were not the most angry de. wads more angry is ' TEMPANI WASNT TUNE FOR US WHEN IS PROVIDED. ' we shld have insisted on bringin our own. haiis.. perhaps this is one of the reason that we got a sliver? went back to sch. everybody was havin big hope for gold. we noe we could do it mayb. we took alot of fotos.. all those.. den changed. ate. back to class. cme lesson. slacked. amaths. pinto absent. after sch. met up went SCH to wait for results. i realli prayed hard for a gold. perhaps i wasnt sincere enough. lol. results out. sliver. i almost cried out. i holded back. other sch de ppl beside mi got a gold. i said congrats to them. dey were so happy. how i wish we could get a gold. all of us will also be as happy. went out of the hall. i couldnt control anymore. tears fell.. i hugged leen. lol. almost same height. so hug her is better. lol. alot of ppl an wei mi. thanks. went to talk to janice. i could c her eyes was filled wif tears. she just dun wan to cry out. hahas. went to my juniors.. asked them to work veri hard for a gold next time. i finally understood how huimin.. sokkiang.. lihui.. jialin.. laoniang.. wanting.. they felt tt time.. it was the last syf for them.. dey cried tt time too. :( durin tt syf. i wasnt nervous durin syf or sad when we got a sliver.. perhaps tt time i noe tt i still have a 2nd time.. but now.. no more.. ppl who pon co practices must have regretted so much.. i confessed tt i pon also too. but i pon not more than 5 times i tink. realli. those ppl. i dun wish to mention. shld noe urself. no offence. dun mind if i said this make u angry. ytd when i went back home. saw tt my sis did not help mi record dao the show. i feel so guilty. cuz i promised korkor tt i will help him record de.. haiis. i was so angry wif my sis. i put my bag and went to find meisiew. she helped mi to take amaths and geog text back. thanks so much. den i told her about those things.. i controlled my tears for flowing out. wonder if she saw my tears in my eyes anot. we chatted at her hse downstairs for about 1 hr.. from 10 to lyk 11.. uploaded those photos that i took. so memorable. the whole co grp photo.. haiis.. i cant believe that dere is no more co practices for the sec 4 le.. i dun wan to concentrade on studies.. i dun wanna go wed ssp.. last time we could use co to pon physic ssp.. becuz of tt stupid physic teacher. lol. but now.. no more.. haiis.. hope tt end of the co could go hongkong bah. co camp in june.. mayb dere is ssp. or wad. lkk just wanted us to study study study.. fcuking sch. sry to guo lao shi, zheng lao shi.. every instructors and teachers who had put in so much efforts.. especially mike. he didnt get his pay from the dae he taught us.. he forced the sch to buy us good instuments... every single instrument he chose himself.. he used his time to choose every single erhu for us.. asked us to change our uniform.. or else we would be laughed by other schs. but now we could laugh at other ppl.. hahas. our uniform were so elegant.. made everybody so proud of it.. haiis.. we couldnt wear it anymore.. no more.. zheng laoshi.. u are the best! 4/03/2007 11:13:00 PM
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